39 times around the sun

a present for mama ~ 6/366

Here is what I woke to this morning. Isaac had been up preparing for me a surprise birthday party. He piled everything he owned around my “birthday chair” (recently acquired as a birthday gift from Fred) and waited for me to wake up. Many of his stuffed animals are also in attendance. You can see them on the couch. And when I did, I was most certainly surprised. Just look at that pile of gorgeousness, all in my honour. What a sweet, sweet boy. (Do you see him peeking in from the top of the photo?)

I’ve never been big on birthdays and I won’t lament on getting closer to 40 (I did that last year), but I will just say that as I get older I really do appreciate all that has gone into getting me where I currently am. Getting older happens whether we want it to or not and so I have decided there is no point in fixating on a number. Instead, I throw my arms open and welcome whatever comes my way, and if I’m honest, this has been one of the best years of my life. I wasn’t living  ”this” life 10 years ago, and I didn’t know “this” person (the person I am now) 10 years ago.  I certainly wasn’t a mother 10 years ago. Hell, I didn’t even know my husband 10 years ago. Life has moved at its own pace, as it will, and with it I have gone on such an incredible journey, made some of the BEST friends a girl could hope to have, became a wife and a mother and the women I want to be. I’d say that’s not bad in exchange for getting older.

And so with this being my last year in my 30′s I am going to take every opportunity to shine my light on the world because a) that is the example I want to set for my son, and b) if I’m not comfortable with who I am yet, I’m not ever going to be. But I am. I absolutely am.

Namaste,
Debbie